Tuesday, January 5, 2010

It's a 12-Step Program, right? *UPDATED*

Today I am going to attend my first AA meeting for fat people. Yes, I'm joining weight watchers - WW. Yes, it is embarrassing. But, yes, it is time. I'm going to stand up at the meeting and say, "Hi. My name is Theresa and I'm fat." All the other fat people will clap for me and say hi. No, they don't actually do that at WW meetings, but I know I'm going to feel that conspicuous. I'm sure I'll be trying to sneak in the door keeping my head down so that no one sees me. I picture myself slouching my way up to the person in charge of the meeting where she will ask to get my weight. The scale will groan with protest as I climb on it to find out just how much of a fat ass I am. And I will probably cry just a little until I realize that I had a lot of fun putting all those pounds on in the last year, and then I will just accept it and focus on what lies ahead. Today is day number 1.

You all better help me through this.

**UPDATE**Well, thanks to all of you for your kind words, but I'm bigger than I've EVER been (except when pregnant) and I need to get back into all the nice clothes I spent money on. I'm going to do it! I went to the meeting today downtown and it was . . . [pause] . . . okay. I felt a bit like a kindergartner. There was actually a woman with a flippy easel paper thingy with a drawing of a woman with a person on her shoulder on it. She asked us somewhat condescendingly, "What do you think this picture means?" I almost turned looked over my shoulder to see if there was a group of five-year-old kids in the room, but when I realized she was looking at me, I raised my eyebrows and thought, "Oh. My. God. What the hell have I gotten into?" To top it off, the meeting was in the basement of an old church building (no complaints there), but the smell reminded me of my pre-school days in an old church building - a combination of mustiness and stale coffee. Really, it was fine, and I got my weight recorded. They have these clever little scales that only allow the person behind the desk to see your weight. And praise Jesus, they don't announce your weight to the crowd or proudly proclaim, "Geez, girl, you lost two pounds - only 50 more to go!" Nope, that part was rather comforting because it is all hush, hush. I'll keep y'all posted. In conjunction I'm starting P90X - which is just plain ridiculous, but I'm going to give it a go. Lindsey is doing that with me. Should be interesting. Y'all keep pushing me and holding me accountable. My goal is to look good for the beach on Memorial Day!

9 comments:

Jess said...

WW works! Jason and I are proof of that. You can do it...and you will probably be the thinnest person there. I am back to doing it on my own again, but Jason has kept his off. YOU CAN DO IT!

Joan said...

You are one of the most motivated people I know. I'm POSITIVE you will get where you want to be - in all you do weight and all! I'll be here cheering you on all the way.

Clarissa said...

It's not so bad. Everyone feels the same way you do, so they are very discreet about the weigh-in. I have been thinking about rejoining myself. I actually liked going to meetings - and they used to give us a gold star sticker for every 5 pounds lost! Never knew stickers could be so exciting for grownups too! Good for you for making the decision to go -- you can do it!

The Potters said...

You are NOT fat, but I completely understand feeling like you are. (Isn't that part of the package of being a woman?) Anyway, keep us posted...and inspired! I may even join if you like it and are having positive results!

lisawitt said...

if you are fat, then i am obese ;-) WW is great and totally works. its basically just eating healthy and in moderation. i just finished my last christmas candy so ill be rejoining tomorrow! we can keep each other motivated and accountable! :)

Laura said...

You are totally not fat. But WW is so the way to go when it's time to curb all the holiday splurging. What meetings are you going to? I used to go to the downtown lunch group and really liked it. And may have to join again if I can't control my urges to have chic fil'a for breakfast everyday.

Theresa said...

Thanks guys!

Anonymous said...

Congrats on taking the next step. I often hear people complain about their weight; but, rarely see them do something about it. Attitude is everything. I believe that WW is good because it teaches moderation and portion control. It isn't a diet so much as a lifestyle change (if you want to keep the weight off).
Watch out for P90X...it is very intense and I definately suggest a base before you get going so that you aren't discouraged. I enjoy it; but, it is quite time consuming. 90 minute Yoga last night almost killed me. Good Luck and keep us posted!

The Potters said...

I love P90X. Justin and I started in in New York and just got completely side-tracked with our move back to Texas. Yes, yes, I know. That WAS over a year ago now. ;) But I really want to start it over! It's hard, but it rocks.